I See The True BeautyOf Autism

   My dear child I watch you as you grow. I see all of your capabilities not your disability. I love watching you learn new things.
   I especially love when you try your hardest to communicate with me. I know it is difficult for you but you are a strong beautiful little girl. I love when you say "I love you Momma". You show me that ALL things are possible, you have to believe in it. Katelyn I do and will always believe in you. You are my little shining star. Keep shining bright!!

Don't Know What To Think Anymore

      I keep seeing stories about possible links to autism. Now I dont know what to beleive. It's always been it could be, but not a definite answer. I have learned on this journey that it doesn't matter to me anymore what the cause for autism is because it will not change who my daughter is. I stopped racking my brain of all the things I did or didnt do during my pregnancy. Think about it... Does it really matter what the cause of autism is? For many parents, it has been a long journey and finding out the cause(s) of autism will not change the fact that our kids live with it already. It will not reverse the diagnosis so what's the point in knowing. I have learned to accept what is and not make excuses or be judgemental. Autism is a life changing experience but so worth it. If I could change anything I would not, because my daughter is my blessing and has filled my life with happiness and joy. So for all the parents who would like answers, I understand but if you are too consumed in finding answers that won't change anything you will miss out on all of the important accomplishments your child will make. Remember enjoy your children now because tomorrow is not promised.

Everything Will Be Great

    As many of you know Autism affects every part of your life. It brings great moments and bad moments. Everyday is like being on a rollercoaster ride, but as scared as we all are, we hold on tight and try our best to get through the ride. I look at my life and see nothing but beauty. I have been blessed with the life I have and wouldn't change it for anything. I do not and will not let Autism take away my happiness.
   My daughter is my blessing from god and she has shown her beauty. Autism doesnt change who your child is or will be, its the foundation of something amazing.  The journey gets bumpy along the way but what lies ahead is so much more greater. When we see all of the milestones our kids reach it puts in perspective that our children are more than a diagnosis.
  It took time for my daughter to get where she is now and thats okay because I have had great memories that I can cherish forever. I am happy that she is making progress even if it takes a long time. Any progress is better than no progress. Stay strong and never lose hope!!