Friday, April 24, 2020

                                          A Best Friend's Love

            When I first met you I was happy, I thought you were handsome. I was excited to talk to you and get to know you. Our conversations were so dope, easy and comfortable. Talking to you was just so easy. I felt at peace when we talked. I cared about how you were doing and how your day went. I wanted to hear all about  it because that is where we were at this point. I wanted to show you support and love. I think its fair to say that we have been through a lot so far. I was with you during the hardest times of your life. I will always be here for you emotionally, mentally, and physically.  Just to listen to you, cry if you need to cry, I'm your listening ear. I will always be by your side. Getting through this will make us stronger. As long as I can be there for you I'll always be happy. Just know I'm here anytime you need me. 


Thursday, April 23, 2020


                                                     My Deepest Condolences

                           I can never imagine what you are
                           going through, the pain you are
                           enduring but remember, that her love was pure
                           She will always be daddy's little girl
                           Remember all the great times you had together
                           She was a beautiful little girl, sweet and kind
                          Always keep that tucked away in your mind and heart
                          Life isn't fair, we can't control that but we can control how it.                                  affects us. Yes we're allowed to grieve and cry our eyes out
                          But we have to keep going. Cherish the memories and she'll.                                    always be with you.

Friday, April 3, 2020

                                             What is Love?

            Love is not about hugs and kisses..
            It's about the things that went missing..
           It has it's ups and downs..
           AND I refuse to let the relationship drown..
           It's getting through the stormy weather..
           Every day always.. TOGETHER..
           It's not about the argument, 
           but how we didn't let it ruin us..
           We are always going to disagree and fuss..
           But at the end of the day, 
           We will fight for love..
           Its about what we will overcome..
           That will prove our true love has won..

Wednesday, July 19, 2017

5 years later... what an adventure!!

                   Five years ago my daughter was diagnosed with classic autism. My world went into a downward spiral. I had so many emotions and worries. All I could think about was, "what is her life going to be like?"
                   I had no clue on what autism was and how I was going to help her. I felt helpless. If it weren't for her amazing doctors and my perseverance to not let it destroy me (because after all it wasnt about me, it was about her) I don't think I would of been able to help her.
                   I had my suspicions and began to research. I took her to the doctor and expressed my concerns. I called early intervention before she was diagnosed.  Waiting on the appointment for the developmentalist I knew what to suspect.
                 The day of her appointment I was a bundle of nerves. I knew what to expect, but really wasn't ready to hear it. I spoke with the doctor for almost an hour and half and then finally... here came the diagnosis. He told me my girl had classic autism.
                  Although I knew in my gut what the diagnosis was when I heard it out loud I was so hurt. It's a very different feeling when you suspect something compared to actually hearing it. I cried and cried. I couldn't understand what was happening.
                 I had already started our journey. I just needed to stay strong and continue it.. for my daughter.  Once I got the diagnosis I was able to change the early intervention services to A.B.A therapy. It was going to be very intense, but all worth it.
                 I look back at when we started our journey to where we are now and I wouldn't change it for the world. My little girl is now 7 years old and going to second grade. She is still in the autism program, one teacher, two aides, and six students. It is an amazing program! She is doing very well in school.
                  She is on her reading level!! She is an excellent reader, she just has trouble comprehending the context of some stories, but that's okay.  She knows the basic concepts of math but struggles with new concepts. Everyone has struggles with new concepts.
                   She is very social and interacts with all kids now. She has no problem expressing how she feels. Her appetite has improved a lot!! She eats non stop! Lol.
                   Overall I am happy with her progress. She is an amazing little girl and has shown me her ability to shine! She is a fighter and she doesn't give up.  

Wednesday, June 28, 2017

My grief

Dad, although it has been two years since you went away,
The pain is so real, it feels like yesterday.

The pain in my heart will always remain,
It's something I will never be able to tame.

My life feels so empty and I feel so lost,
Losing you was such a great cost.

You were the greatest dad, I am so thankful for you,
No one will ever fill your shoes.

I wish I could tell you, that I am fine,
But the truth is, I am lost in time.

I want you to know that you were my best friend,
My love for you will never end.

I wish I could hug you and never let go,
Thank you dad for helping me grow.

There was so much left to say,
I wish you could have you stayed.

I want you to know I love and miss you so very much. Until we meet again....

Wednesday, December 28, 2016

Inside my world of Autism.

         It has been a while since I last wrote a blog. A lot has changed since the last blog. My daughter is doing great, so far. She has become very social. She is reading, and expressing herself more than ever.
          With that comes a lot of frustration for her. She wants things done a certain way and cannot reason with any other way. If you live with Autism you can understand that.
          We went to the doctor and was referred to getting an Applied Behavior Analysis therapist to help her and me. I become so frustrated when I cannot help her.
           We have come a long way but there is still a long road ahead. All of the sleepless nights, therapies, hard work and dedication has shown in a big way.
          With the New Year approaching my resolution is to continue to help my daughter succeed and shine like she is meant to.
            It has been a rough year, a year without my dad. I am still grieving his loss. Christmas is the worse without him. I still hurt but my daughter helps me get through the day.
          One look at her beautiful smile and it makes all the pain go away. She is so happy and has no worries. I can learn from her. I hope 2017 is great for all of us!! I wish everyone a Happy Healthy New Year!!

Tuesday, August 9, 2016

Devotion and Perseverance

           Summer is almost over and school is approaching. We have had a great summer vacation and we are looking forward to school. My little girl is going into first grade (I can't beleive it). She is doing amazing!! She loves school.
            She loves doing work and seeing her friends and teachers. This year she is going to a different school (it might be a little challenging, it will be a new atmosphere).
            She will remain in the Autism program with six children, the teacher, and two teacher aides. The children are from her old class which is good.
              My son is going into tenth grade and my middle daughter is going into sixth grade. My, how they are growing up too fast. I will be working in the same school as my little girl and will be across the hall from her.
            I am excited to get back to work and meet my students!! I will be in the third and fourth grade autism class. My little girl has done such an amazing job. She has come a long way.
            All of the hard work, dedication, appointments, advocacy,  and most importantly the love, has paid off!! I just wanna say to all of the autism families keep your head high and never lose hope.
           It's an amazing journey and there's a greater reward at the end. Your child showing the world their capabilities and making their mark in the world. It's all thanks to YOU, the parents!