Wednesday, December 28, 2016

Inside my world of Autism.

         It has been a while since I last wrote a blog. A lot has changed since the last blog. My daughter is doing great, so far. She has become very social. She is reading, and expressing herself more than ever.
          With that comes a lot of frustration for her. She wants things done a certain way and cannot reason with any other way. If you live with Autism you can understand that.
          We went to the doctor and was referred to getting an Applied Behavior Analysis therapist to help her and me. I become so frustrated when I cannot help her.
           We have come a long way but there is still a long road ahead. All of the sleepless nights, therapies, hard work and dedication has shown in a big way.
          With the New Year approaching my resolution is to continue to help my daughter succeed and shine like she is meant to.
            It has been a rough year, a year without my dad. I am still grieving his loss. Christmas is the worse without him. I still hurt but my daughter helps me get through the day.
          One look at her beautiful smile and it makes all the pain go away. She is so happy and has no worries. I can learn from her. I hope 2017 is great for all of us!! I wish everyone a Happy Healthy New Year!!

Tuesday, August 9, 2016

Devotion and Perseverance

           Summer is almost over and school is approaching. We have had a great summer vacation and we are looking forward to school. My little girl is going into first grade (I can't beleive it). She is doing amazing!! She loves school.
            She loves doing work and seeing her friends and teachers. This year she is going to a different school (it might be a little challenging, it will be a new atmosphere).
            She will remain in the Autism program with six children, the teacher, and two teacher aides. The children are from her old class which is good.
              My son is going into tenth grade and my middle daughter is going into sixth grade. My, how they are growing up too fast. I will be working in the same school as my little girl and will be across the hall from her.
            I am excited to get back to work and meet my students!! I will be in the third and fourth grade autism class. My little girl has done such an amazing job. She has come a long way.
            All of the hard work, dedication, appointments, advocacy,  and most importantly the love, has paid off!! I just wanna say to all of the autism families keep your head high and never lose hope.
           It's an amazing journey and there's a greater reward at the end. Your child showing the world their capabilities and making their mark in the world. It's all thanks to YOU, the parents!

Thursday, March 24, 2016

Time Never Heals

            It is a year and one month since my Hero, my Dad, has passed and it has been a nightmare coping with his passing. They say that time heals all wounds...... well it hasn't for me, the pain and heartache only get worse.
            I feel like this is a nightmare that I cannot wake up from. His passing was an unfortunate quick one and has taken a part of my heart and has made me feel so alone.
           Every time I close my eyes all I see is my dad laying in a hospital bed suffering from a massive stroke that left him brain dead, that is the last time I saw my dad, helpless and in pain. The tears just rolled out my eyes because I wanted to take his pain away and I knew I couldn't.
          I look back at all the great memories we shared but that doesn't seem to take the heartache
away. I had a conversation with my dad before he had a stroke. As I walked into his hospital room I saw my dad laying there. I looked at his eyes and he had a blank stare.
           He seemed to look lost and confused. He was suffering from dementia. I said
" Hi Dad do you know who I am?" He said "of course its Jill". I had a huge smile on my face. We started talking and had a great conversation.
            It was pretty awesome. We laughed, we cried and then suddenly he said " I would like for all of the family to come and see me, especially Jill" (I am his baby girl) my body felt so paralyzed and I was speechless and started crying again. I said " Dad I am Jill, I'm right here. I didn't forget about you. I will never forget about you".
          Well that was the last time I saw my dad awake. He had a massive stroke that left him brain dead and passed away within a few days.  I can't stop seeing the images of our conversation and him sleeping and not waking up.
          I still cry everyday wishing he was still here. It's difficult losing a parent. I will never forget him and will always think of him and keep him in my heart forever. I love you Dad! R.I.P